Here We Are Again

3 am food runs, emotional mood swings, and the smell of vomit when I walk into the bathroom in the morning.
I can't say i exactly missed it, but i am happy that we are having a baby.
Last time I wasnt prepared, but it grew on me, and the more i thought about it the more i became prepared..just in time for it to slip between my fingers. This time is different, i am determined to make sure everything, I mean EVERYTHING will work out correctly this time, and anything or anyone who decides to stand in my way will suffer the wrath of Sodapop Curtis. (oh god im starting to sound like kit) -.-
Tuesday we went in for the first ultrasound. They put that funny gel stuff on Katie's baby bumb and then projected it on the screen. It was different than last time, i dunno how, but this time i was even more excited.
We didnt find out if its a boy or girl yet, but we did choose some names...

Girls:

Astrid Dylan Curtis

Joey Katherine Curtis

Dallas Skye* Curtis

Boys:

Seth Darrell Curtis

Ace Pilar Curtis

Boone Dylan Curtis

Let me know what you think :)

New House

Darrys been on my tail about movin out ever since me and Katie got married. I cant blame the guy, i mean i kinda agree it is time to move out, but whenever i thought about leaving it made me sad. This is the house we all grew up in, the house where we lived with mom and dad. It has too many memories to just leave it behind, not to mention how close our family is and everything. Me and Katie thought about it and have been sorta looking around for a while. I didnt give it much thought though until the house next door went on the market. NEXT DOOR, right next to our house now, its too perfect. Its in our price range and everything, so last week I put down an offer and today i gotta call sayin the house is all ours. So we will be movin in this week, it'll probably be the easiest move ever considering its just next door haha.

Master Bedroom


Guest Room

This is what the third bedroom WILL look like =)

Bathroom #1


Bathroom #2


Living Room


Kitchen

Happy Anniversary

I was relieved to notice that the tension in the house really dimmed down this week. I was sleeping back in my bed with my wife, instead of Pony. -.-
Yesterday was mine and Katies first anniversary. We've been married a whole year and have already been through so much. I laid awake in bed just staring at the ceiling till katie moved beside me. I noticed she was awake. We laid there... talking baby names and plans for tonight and stuff. We went to downtown Tulsa and had brunch. I know...who the hell has brunch these days? We walked the streets and stopped at every shop that caught Katies eye. We picked up food for the party on the way home.
People started coming over around 6. Darry got the steaks goin on the grill while Pony Katie and me set up stuff in the house.
I stayed far away from the beer, dont need a repeat. The first game we played was...interesting. A guy is blindfolded then all the girls kiss him once and he has to guess who it was. I went first and got them all wrong except katie....and kitty cause she kissed me on the cheek instead. The only one who guess everyone correct was Dallas, ofcourse..hes probably made out with every chick in the gang....he even guessed Steve right o.O
After that the stereo was bustin loud and people were dancing. I was standing close to the door when is slowly opened,
"Hey Tyler. Glad you could make it man." I welcomed him inside.
"Yeah......congratulations by the way." He said.
He kinda chilled by the wall for a while, wasn't really talking to anyone so I went up to him and pulled the first person I could on my way, which happened to be Bree. She was yellin at me...untill I stopped her in front of Tyler.
"Oh. Well hello handsome." she said.
I left them and walked outside where Carson was winning at beer pong. Couples occupied every corner of the house and backyard, Angela and Johnny, Pony and Brooke, Tim and Jamie, Dimitri and Jelly, Chase and Dawn. This happens every time, but as soon as someone whips it out thats it im done. And that person just had to be Steve. He wasnt even making out with anyone... he walked around sayin "Who wants to touch my weiner?", finally someone said yes....dunno who. Elena was stripping on the kitchen table with a bottle of vodka in her hand. Pony and Johnny decided to give their tongues a break and streaked through the house wearing kiddie inner tubes and putting britney spears full blast on the stereo. Kitty and twobit took things easy, and marcia thought it best to stay away.....so did Sandy, thank god. The brumley kids were smokin pot in ponys room, filled the whole damn house with smoke. People brought us presents and we had a huge cake made. At the end we busted out the champagne and Darry made a toast speech thing then everyone slowly started to leave after that. It was a great nigh celebrating a great occasion with the best person in the world, my wife Katie.

Happy Days

I never seemed to notice Tyler before, but now that I know who he is he seems to be everywhere. We had a nice dinner that night I invited him over, at least I think we did. Introduced him to the family. Poor kids never really had good friends, I cant imagine the torment of being a soc gone greaser. Its never happened before, but that makes him more of an outcast than any of us. After Tyler left that night I took a shower and was gonna go to bed but as I started for Ponys room a hand reached out from the doorway and rested on my chest,
"I heard everything you said..... to Bob." Katie said.
"It was all true." I replied softly.
'I know," our eyes locked, "I've always known, I was just.... just hurt I guess."
"And you had ever right to be, I messed up and I'm so so sorry." I contained the tears this time. "But your the one I love Katie, and I wont let you slip away from me.... id die without you." I always found that line in movies humorous little did I know id actually feel that way.
She wrapped her arms around my neck and squeezed me. I held her against me, my fingers tangled in her hair. Oh how I missed this, I breathed it in. Then she slipped away kissing me on the cheek. I stared at her for a moment, then stroking her cheek I pressed my lips against hers.
"I love you." I said.
When she pulled away she caught my hand and pulled me into the room... our room. It was nice to be back in my own bed for a change, next to the person I love most.

Deadly Encounters

I decided to relieve myself from the tension thats currently building up in my house and go out for a bit this weekend. I hit up the tastee freeze, then the vacant lot, i made sure to stay as far away as possible from the bars -.- I thought about what we needed at home and made up a list to go shopping. I was pacing the isles when I looked up and saw someone familiar, it was Sandys friend Mark, the one who did the DNA test that stated the baby Sandy is having is apparently mine. My first instinct was to ignore him, and i started to. I know he knew I was there, he kept looking over and fidgeting with a box in his hand. Finally he walked up to me,
"Look man, I need to tell you something," he was very hesitant. "I cant ruin anyones life like this and you deserve to know the truth."
I was confused. I retraced the last encounter we had but nothing was catching my attention.
"The baby isn't yours....it's Sam's"
I was confused.
"Why the hell would you lie about it?" I asked.
"Because.... its what she wanted. She says leaving you was the stupidest thing she ever did, and well when she realized your life turned out okay and her's didnt exactly turn out how she wanted, I just thought it would help her, but as much as i care for Sandy, I cant do this to you."
I couldnt believe what I was hearing. I was relieved to know the kid wasnt mine, but I still couldnt grasp the fact that he lied to me. What if he had never told me the truth?
After that he just kinda awkwardly walked off leaving me there in shock.
I felt like a huge chunk of this had worn away, yeah I still cheated but I now didnt have kid that wasnt my wifes to worry about.

I paced home after that, on my way to tell Katie about it, hopefully it would lighten things a little. I had just about reached the curb infront of my house when I hear a voice behind me, a voice i knew all to well but one i wish i hadnt known at all,
"Well, well if aint the prettiest curtis."
I turned around and faced the person I hated most in the world.
"What the hell do you want Sheldon?" I wasnt in the mood for his drama.
"I heard about your whorish little act. Didnt know you had it in you." He gave me that devilish grin that I so much hated.
I didnt want to mess with Bob, I really just wasnt in the mood for it right now, then again I never am.
"And with your ex-girlfriend... damn curtis and I thought I was the only thing that ruined your life." he laughed at his own joke.
I was fed up and frustrated. I was going to punch him the the mouth if he got any closer to me. Finally, I had enough,
"You know what Bob," I was yelling, im pretty sure the whole south and north side could hear me, "You did me a favor, if you had never taken Sandy from me I wouldnt be with the woman im with now, and i would rather die than to live life without her."
He started to move towards me, but something held him back.
"Leave him alone Bob." another voice, this one I didnt recognize.
"Go home, this isnt your fight." Bob was arguing with the person behind me.
I turned to look at him, I didnt recognize his face. It wasnt till Bob said his name when it finally connected in my head,
"Go home Tyler, your not wanted here." Bob was getting angry.
Tyler approached me, Bob just stood there a second then got back in his car and drove off.
"Tyler?" I couldn't believe it. "The younger Sheldon?"
The Sheldon parents split a while back, it wasnt a surprise to anyone really, we all saw that coming. Bob stayed with his dad on the South side. His dad was the one with all the money so when they split Tyler and his mom moved deep into the North side, making Tyler technically a greaser. Tyler wasnt ever seen with the soc crowd anyways so it didnt seem to bother him, but a former soc going grease... kinda makes him an outcast.
"Yeah." I could tell he didnt like being refereed to as Bobs kid brother, cant blame the kid though. "Im usually the first to notice when he crosses into the north side, Dad was never good a discipline..." He trailed on, i felt he was trying to get something across but didnt have the time to burst out with a life story. He was hated by the socs but disliked by greasers... he didnt really fit in anywhere. He scribbled somethin on a piece of paper and handed it to me before he started to walk off.
"If he comes back, give me a call." and with that he left. I pulled out my phone and quickly dialed the number as I watched him walk away then pull out his phone answering it.
"Hey, do you wanna stay for dinner?" I asked.
He hung up, turned around and we both walked inside.

I Know Sorry Isn't Enough

I had to tell her. I plotted all the different ways to do it in my head, but not one of them seemed to be easier than the other. I wasn't in the mood to cook dinner, so I left everyone to fend for themselves with the leftovers in the fridge. I was sitting on the couch with the TV on but not really watching it. Katie walked in the front door and noticed that I wasn't in my usual place cooking dinner. "Hey," she said walking in. "Whats for dinner?"
"It's leftover night." I said with a sigh I tried to hold back.
"Did you have fun at that party last night?" I cringed at her words.
"Katie, we need to talk about something."
Her movements were slow after that. She set her purse down on the piano bench then walked over and sat down by me on the couch.
"What's wrong?" she said placing her hand on my twiddling thumbs.
I was silent for a minute, trying to get the words out of my mouth.
"Soda, you know you can tell me." She intended on making me feel better, but it only caused me more pain.
"Katie, I got really drunk last night.....completely wasted. I don't know how it happened, I just remember waking up... and it wasn't you." I started to cry.
Katie's facial expression grew worried, "What do you mean..." My crying made her cry, and I hadnt even told her the worst part yet.
I couldnt hold off any longer, I just had to say it, "I slept with Sandy." I said
Her hand moved away from mine and she just stared with tears streaming down her face.
I started to babble on about how I was sorry and that it was a mistake, but she just continued to stare until she finally cut me off,
"I dont even know what to say to you right now." Then she got up, walked into the bedroom, and locked the door.

The next morning Pony was a little shocked to find me in his bed.
"SODA!!" I woke up to Ponyboy screaming in my face.
"What Pony, What?" i sat up rubbing my puffy red eyes.
"I thought we decided you'd stop sleeping in my bed when you got married." He said.
"Yeah well some things have changed since I cheated on her Pony." I pulled the covers back over my shoulder and rolled over facing the opposite wall.
"You did what??" He shook me.
"At that party the other night, I got wasted and.... well I slept with Sandy."
"You cheated on Katie with Sandy??"
"Yes Pony, do you need me to give you all the little details?"
"No No No, I get it." He was quick to answer. "But, Soda how could you do that?"
I rolled back over to face him, "It was a mistake Pony. A big fucking mistake." Hot tears filled my eyes, "I was drunk and I thought it was Katie, but I fucked up Pony, I fucked up bigtime and screwed my ex-girlfriend." As soon as I was finished talking Pony pulled me into a hug against his chest. Ironic, I thought I was supposed to be the big brother.
"I've never been married or cheated on anyone Soda, but if it was a mistake like you said, things should work out okay." Pony wasnt supposed to be giving me advice and telling me its okay, that was my job.
"I dunno Pony, this is bad." I admitted more to myself than to him.
"But if love is anything everyone says it is... shouldnt she forgive you?"
God why did Pony have to be so smart.
"I guess" I said. "But, I just dont know Pones,"
"Soda, I know both of you and I know how much you both love each other, if if doesnt work out for you... then love isnt what I thought it was."
I guess Pony had a point, but I just dont know yet. I felt like I couldnt possibly get any lower than this.

I Sure As Hell Didn't Expect to Find Myself Here

I came home from work wednesday afternoon with a sluggish attitude. I didnt wanna do anything with anyone. I wanted to take a shower and lounge on the couch till it was late enough when i could crawl into my bed and sleep off the wait for a new morning. Dimitri not being at work has really put a strain on mine and steves days. Too much work and not enough workers, but I guess i cant blame the guy, after all i can have sex and he cant LMAO.

I approached the shower with a relaxed mood. As soon as I stepped in to the warm water, someone busts through the bathroom door slamming it into the wall. There are only two people in the gang that do that, Pony and Steve. Since Pony was still at school for the day i figured it was steve.
"Dammit Soda hurry up we got a party to go to." he yelled.
"Steve, i aint goin to no party..."
"Like hell you aint buddy."
I barely had enough time to throw on clothes before steve had me by the arm yankin me out the front door.
"Since when did you go to parties in the middle of the day steven?"
"Since they had em in the middle of the day Soap."
Why would someone have a party in the middle of the day? We approached the house, and the moment i laid eyes on it I knew exactly who's house it was.
"Since when did you go to parties at my ex-girlfriend's house steve??" I was nearly shouting.
"Since she started throwin great parties dumbass."
"Remind me to tell Dimitri he's my new best friend."
Leave it to a greaser like Steve to stick his tongue out at you in replace of a comeback.
I hadn't seen or heard much from Sandy since she told me she was knocked up with someone else's kid and was leaving me, so when she answered the door i wasnt sure of what to say, so i let steve do the talkin........bad idea -.-
"Woah. Still as sexy as i remember. Since ur not with my buddy Sode's here anymore what about takin a whack at me?"
"I'll take a whack somewhere Steve, but I promise it won't be anywhere you'll enjoy." She answered.
I couldn't help but laugh, but as soon as I did she laughed too. God how i used to love that laugh. Everything rushed back at that moment. The nights i stayed up late to sneak out of my house and crawl into her bed, the first thought i had about marrying her, the tears that hit the floor when she told me it wasnt mine, the letter she returned without bothering to take a peek at it. It was almost overwhelming. The only thing that caused me to catch my breath was the thought of the person i had waiting for me when i got back home, and only then could i walk proudly through that front door.

We had been there a while along with most of our gang, to relieve the tension I did have a few beers, then we started dancing and having some fun playin strip poker and beer pong, then i had a few more beers, and a few more after that then a few after that. The next thing I knew I had no awareness of my whereabouts or who i was with. We were dancin and drinkin when i noticed those blonde curls dancing in front of me. I scooted up closer to her, my hands on her body, my eyes scanning her every curve. I didn't expect to see Katie at a party like this in the middle of the week, especially pregnant. I pushed the thoughts away and just kept dancing. After a couple of more beers i realized we were in a different part of the house, a bedroom, and we were on the bed with no clothes. I remember the feeling, her body beneath me, the soft noises she made as i pleased her. My lips were all over her skin, my hands caressing her body. After that I blacked out. It didn't feel long after that when the sun was streaming in on my face. As soon as i opened my eyes, the headache hit, it hit damn hard, but what i realized after that hit me even harder. I peered around the room, this wasnt my room, this wasnt even my house, and the person snuggled up against me..... wasnt my wife. It was Sandy. I couldnt remember my head hurting after that, all i could feel was the sharp ache in my chest.
I grabbed my clothes and left the house before anyone else woke up and realized what i had done. Luckily katie was at work when I got home. I felt so disgusted the moment I got out of the car I puked in the driveway. I wiped my mouth on my sleeve and went inside the house. I couldnt go to my room, the memories i had there with katie wouldnt help my situation, so instead i turned the knob of the door across from mine. I shut it behind me and crawled up in Kit's bed and just cried. I smelled awful, and I was sick to my stomach, but I didnt move. I couldnt move, all i could do was cry. After a while, the crying never ceased to slow so I decided to call someone. Who could I tell the awful, shameful thing that I had just done? Who knew how to convince me that everything would be okay? I scrolled down my contacts in my phone, and pressed call on the one right under Katie's.
It rang and rang and rang. No one answered, after all she was at school, but I tried again...still no answer. I gave up dropping the phone beside me and weeped into the pillow some more. My phone rang only a minute later. I pressed the answer button and suddenly couldn't remember what words were. I just bawled into the phone.
"Soda? What's wrong?"
"Kitty?...... I need you."